February 2009
55 posts
stop looking for someone you can't live without...
January 2009
41 posts
road.
There is a road at the end of my lonely street, way past the last of the houses and white picket fences. It is a dirt road, quite possibly the last of it’s kind in this town. It is almost completely shadowed by large coniferous trees. There is no mailbox, so I was fairly certain it wasn’t a driveway. There is however, a sign which reads “Dead End.” I always thought that was...
I am happy.
What a feeling this is. I’ve missed it.
This Providence - Sand in Your Shoes (Acoustic)
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Most days, I go to school for six hours, get a thirty minute “rest” at home before i have to drive a half hour away to work for 6 hours. Thats a 12 hour day, not even factoring in the hours i spend on homework. My mom, she works from 11 am to 3 pm 3 days a week. my little sister is the only one she still has to take care of, but most of the time the 14 year old stays in her room...
when you tell me I'm beautiful is the only time I...
Bright Eyes - Bowl of Oranges
this song always...
The Wizard of Oz
The Wizard: Hearts will never be practical until they are made unbreakable.
Tin Man: But I still want one.
untitled.
You’ve got stars in your eyes
My name on your lips
Drowning your words
from that bottle you sip
The devil on your shoulder
Whispers sweet nothings in your ear
The scars scream your secrets
So loud that all can hear
i felt alive.
Last night I danced like nobody was watching
I sung at the top of my lungs
I felt beautiful and free
I could feel the adrenaline moving through me
I smiled more and laughed often
I felt carefree and alive.
i had one of those dreams you don't want to wake...
scribbled in journal pages.
I’m clinging on the the last honest words you said. Before the dust and dirt became too much to just sweep under the rug. Now lies coat the truth like too many layers of paint on that shiny new car that in reality is just a rusty pile of metal. You and I are like lemons; we never worked from the start. We trick the highest bidder into thinking we are more than we are.
i can't do this on my own anymore.
late nights.
Take this as an excuse to write me off Chalk it up to another lonely girl desparate for attention Splitting at the seams Letting my blood and tears spill on the floor Staring up through the ceiling At an empty nights sky Listening to the distant hum of crickets I only want the voices in my head to be silenced I wish i was better for you and I If only life was as simple as the movies make it seem...
I bet you didn't know.
I bet you didn’t know that every time I think of you I smile, or how much I laugh with my friends and how much I truly enjoy being happy.
I bet you didn’t know that I’ll say I love dancing in the rain even though I’ve never done it. I bet you didn’t know that I love thunderstorms and think snow is beautiful. I bet you didn’t know how much I love to just lie on...
God is love.
Nobody ever tells stories of God falling in love. Maybe it is the tragic flaw instilled in all of us. Perhaps it is the greatest gift ever given. Maybe He gave us something he has always wanted but never had the heart to ask for. I thank God for love, more than anything else. Miracles happen once in a while, love is forever. Love can change the world. Maybe that is why God gave us love, so we can...
“Because it is only when you hitch your wagon to something larger than yourself...”
– Barack Obama in a letter to his kids.
walls
Feeling empty
As the walls in this white room
Sturdy and strong
But crack under pressure
Reaching the ceiling
Yet attached to the floor
Stuck between having less
And wanting more
Radiohead - High and Dry
Only in America
nechamaelle:
Only in America can a pizza get to your house faster than an Ambulance.
Only in America are there handicap parking spots in front of a skating rink
Only in America……can a pizza get to your house faster than an ambulance.
Only in America……are there handicap parking places in front of a skating rink.
Only in America……do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the...
“Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking...”
– Rent-boy (Trainspotting 1996). (via entrails) (via damages)
I have you right where I want you; deep enough so...
coldest winter.
In the wintertime I like to stare at the night sky until the stars blur and fade. I do this often year round but the winter air is especially invigorating and enlightening. I lie on my back and take deep breaths of ice-cold air and just watch the little wisps of clouds float along in front of the moon. I watch the breath roll out of my lungs into twisted patterns of steam. The cold wind bites my...
“You wanna know what love is? You’ll know when you find it. It’s...”
– Anonymous.
inevitable.
The truth is we are all dying from the moment we are born, an inevitable truth that scares the shit out of a lot of people. Another truth is that those who fear death fear life, as we are only living to die. The only things in our lives that fulfill the definition of fate, the only things set in stone, are the date’s inscribed on our grave markers. We are all destined to die, the question...
untitled.
Blissful ignorance in track of time
Measuring life by the heartbeats
Perseverance for feeling sublime
Accomplishing to celebrate defeats
Tongues tied around twisted lies
Our hearts are heavy and light
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Apathy seemed only right
Crossing paths and crossing lines
Try to feel, escape, only you hide
Try to conform but nothing defines
Forever to love, forever denied
The Rocket Summer - Goodbye Waves and Driveways
...
Sometimes you take the walls down brick by brick....
“All you need is love is a lie cause we had love but we still said goodbye.”
– John Mayer: Split Screen Sadness
wrote this a while ago and rediscovered it today.
All circuits are busy but I’m staying on the line. It’s a waste of time that ticks by slowly but surely, bringing us closer to our ultimate demise. Morbid thoughts and a sadistic attitude; suffering in the wake of another gray morning. Tiptoe across the hardwood floor, careful not to wake anyone when you open the door for a cigarette. Regret. The sun tries to peek through the clouds to no avail. A...
every avenue - think of you later
“So I took another couple hits of morphine and like zonked out. Then at four in...”
– My friend Christina who is in the hospital after having her gallbladder remove.
